Happy Easter!

I have had it.

I have had it.

I have had it.

I have had it.

This is going to be one big pity party post, so if you don't like those, I suggest you X out now. Trying to get into nursing school is killing me. I don't even know where to start but every single thing has gone wrong. I applied a few semesters back to get into the Medical College of Georgia. I was waitlisted and they never made it down to me. That same semester I took Organic Chemisty (per the advisement of the lady at UGA, because she said I'd need it at Georgia College if I got in there) and failed. I got no help from my professor when I asked for it, the tutor that I PAID to see was as dumb as a board and I actually missed every problem he helped me with on my lab report. Plus, it was right after my mom died and I didn't care about much of anything. It was just impossible. With most nursing schools, you have to have a science sequence. Either two bios and one chem or two chems and one bio. My advisor said GCSU required two chems and one bio, and either was acceptable for MCG. So that's what I did.

After that semester, I transferred to GCSU because I thought it would be an easier school since it's much smaller, and cheaper because I'd soon be losing my scholarship. I had to spend a semester doing stupid classes that filled GCSU's core (like a class on Buddhism...really? for nursing?) so that was a semester more behind. Then the next semester my GPA was .o2 ..... .02!!! too low to apply for nursing school as the minimum here is a 2.75. This semester, it was higher! I worked my butt off and I had a 2.9, so I applied and got rejected. They base it off your GPA, SAT and TEAS (some acronymed pre-nursing school test). I got an 81 on the TEAS, which was pretty good said my advisor. I retook it just in case and got an 81 the second time too. Please tell me why a school even sets the minimum at 2.75, if they reject a 2.9?!?! And this is kind of embarrassing, but I really don't care, I was like 37 people OUT of getting in!!! Just say you have to have a 3.0 or a 3.2! Jeez! Don't get my hopes up! So I also applied at Macon State. A super small school...got rejected there too!! This is doing wonders for my self esteem.

So the new game plan was to retake classes over the summer. Retake the SAT. You remember, that test from when you're like 16? Yeah, apparently for some reason that crap matters when you're 22. Ridiculous. And then I'll reapply for Spring 2012. Only, today I find out that summer of this year is still under the 2010-2011 financial aid year and I've maxed out my loans and used all my grants paying for the last two semesters. WONDERFUL. I have no freaking money to pay for the summer class(es). They're $675...A CLASS.

I'm just really tired of trying my hardest and it isn't good enough. I don't know what else to do. I'm applying to associate degree programs, but every one of those would require us to move. It's all just a really big mess. :(

There's Always Hope.

So I know I haven't blogged in a while. The semester's getting busier and busier and Scentsy's taking off, but I have kept up with everyone else'se posts. I got on today and saw quite a few posts pertaining to another blog that I didn't follow. It was heart-wrenching to read (you can read it here) and I am so glad to know that they have found her and she is okay.

Everyone has good days and bad days and often is left asking why things are going the way they are in life. Never give up hope. Things will get better. There's no guarantee when or how, but just know that it will. I want each and every one of you to know that I care about you, even if we have never talked, and that I am here if you ever need anything. I think problems like these are often ignored and it is okay to let people know you're feeling depressed or want help. It is okay!!

Please, please, please email me or add me on facebook or anything. I am here!